When...

.... will it be time?

Always an issue, a reason, an excuse

to reduce aspirations and desires to nothingness and push them aside.

But. I can't do it. Not with them all looking at me. What if I forget to remember how? I don't want weak, sympathetic applause or pitying half-smiles. I can do it. I'll prove I'm pretty okay at this, I swear.

Yeah, I'm sure. But. Why are you doing this in this first place? 

To satiate your own desires? Or to win appoval?

Erm. Well for me, I guess but... it would be nice if they liked it just a little.

And does their response determine how you feel about pushing further? Will it change your passion for it??

No. Well... Yes. Sort of. A bit. I guess.

You 'guess' 


Again. Why do you want to do this?  Who is this for? How bad do you really want this.... Well??

*silence*

Only one way to find out. Do it NOW.